Do you remember that moment when one of your dreams just wasn’t going to happen? When you realized that maybe life wasn’t going to turn out like you thought?
Maybe it was the moment when you got the call that one of your kids was on drugs, or when you lost your job or was served divorced papers. Maybe it was the moment when the doctor looked you in the eye and said, I’m sorry but there is nothing that we can do.
It’s the moment that you say, “Please God, just this one thing. If you could just heal my child. If you could just heal this relationship. God if you could just do this one thing please.” – Pete Wilson/Cross Point Church
Join Todd (christian music artist from Selah) and Angela Smith as they share their story of “planning for loss and hoping for miracles.” presented by Cross Point Church.
Preparing for the loss of their newborn child – Audrey
Jeremiah 29:11 “I know the plans I have for you. The plans to prosper you not to harm you. To give you hope and a future.” Todd Smith
“What I’ve learned through this is that there are going to be moments when your angry, where your sad, where I wanted to turn my back on God.” Angela Smith
“Isn’t it difficult to be faithful to God when you feel He hasn’t been faithful to you? Will we interpret God through our circumstances or will we simply believe that He is who He says He is?” Pete Wilson
“What do you do when God doesn’t show up?” Pete Wilson
“Whatever your going through right now just rest in knowing that it is not a surprise to God. And that He is with you. He is with you if you pull him into the darkness of the spot in which you are.” Angela Smith
Hard and difficult trails will cross all of our paths at some time in our life. Some trials will be darker, harder, and more painful then others. And the reasons why they come may never fully be understood. But when those trials come, whether we know it or not, we are presented with a choice. A choice to lean into the arms of God or to slap them away.
As I learned of Audrey Smith’s short life, I couldn’t help but see that her condition was shaping her parents faith. They had a choice to make in the darkness and despair. And the choice that they elected was to allow God to carry them through. Carry them through the dismay. Carry them through the pain and anger. To carry them through the dark loneliness and the thin threads of faith. To carry them through the confusion and the why me, why us, why her. They chose to “pull God into the darkness of the spot that they were in.”
While Audrey was yet unborn, she was having a positive affect on those around her. Her terminal condition was instrumental in growing faith and trust in God in those who loved her. And as their faith and trust grew, God was becoming more and more real.
Faith, like shadows, has a variety of shades. It is the trials of life that caused the shades of faith to deepen and become richer. To progress from light, transparent, and fragile faith to a solid and rich unwavering faith. And unwavering faith heals all wounds.
Audrey, while in her mother’s womb – tiny and hidden from the sight of man, had a purpose. A purpose, through her condition, to grow faith and trust in God in those who loved her. And in turn, they would use what they learned and encourage others with the unwavering message that God will lead them through their most darkest valleys. That’s pretty impacting.
Jeremiah 29:11 “I know the plans I have for you. The plans to prosper you not to harm you. To give you hope and a future.”